tears in my eyes, blurring my sight....
Sunday, March 12, 2006
1:27 AM
ah...so late liaoz so tired..... my eyelid can no longer hold the tears in my right eye, blurring my sight.... yawnz....
no matter where we are, the stars and the moon, we share the same sky... no matter who you are, what u do, how you live, we have the same sky... amazing isn't it? Maybe we are from different creed, race, skin colour, background, doing different things, thinking of different matters, worrying about different troubles, the sky is always there for you and me.. although the brightness and the amount of stars may differ, every night, the stars are always there, shining...., shining.......,
thru our eyes, into our heart...hmm...changes....i'm weird... i know that.. sometimes i ponder upon things that had been done, why? why have i did this? why have i did that?
of course.. must look forward, learn and move on.. no point staying at the same place without progress..if not, how to improve and change for the better?? try as much as possible
to embrace the most negative news with the most positive attitute.. i feel different.
i felt that i had changed, getting more and more indifferent everyday... easily agitated, short tempered, frustrated, irritated over things easily... everything doesn't seems to matter anymore... 19 years, what have i been doing? wasting time? fooling around? a clown?what i have i become of? being a coward, running away from a lot fears and phobias, avoiding things that are important and have to be done... lack of confidence and self esteem.. pessimistic, just think that things will turn out bad without even trying... this is what i call childish, when things don't go your way, just sit down on the floor and cry... i think i'm really losing myself.... can't really recognize myself anymore.. but, how much have i changed? this 19 years ....its like i have never grow up before... still behaving like a child..who i'm suppose to be? how am i suppose to behave?what is the point of living on?
my life my path, you set you lead, i carry on i learn.
break away from the cocoon and change.. metamorphosis
in the same starry starry night, i should spread my wings and embrace the light...
kei zai was here.
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