simple life, my desire

7 Global concerns..

2006-06-24T23:09:00.000+08:00

In our world, there r 7 type of people that are by the street and need our concern....

1) Children at risk

girls in India a) forced marriages, which result in giving birth at the age of 14. b)prostitution
boys in India a)forced to join the army. b)forced to work in the factory as cheap, ill-treated child labour
In Mexico, childrens live in rubbish dumps
In Sri Lanka, 25000 children are sold to the sex industry

2) Abused Women

many are abused across the world
HIV, their children suffer even more than themselves
in some culture, women are unable to say no to sex as wanted by whoever that want is
women trafficking across the world for the sex industry
some are sold from Nepal at the age of 12 and have no choice but to continue their life as prostitutes

3)The Extreme Poor

make up the 25% of the world population
wat we can do to help?? the least is not to be cold-hearted, don't even care of their situation
Bill Gates, who 'l be stepping down from Micosoft in 2 years time, to participate 100% in fund-raising for the poor, sick and needy.(Thank God!)

4)HIV/ AIDS

said to be started by homosexual
one of the dangerous problem to humans
moral problem linked to it
wat's impt is that it is easy to prevent, if the people r shown and educated

5)People With Impure Water

20& of the world population do not have pure H2o(Water) to drink
for the past decades, many missionay organisation are helping to solve this problem by digging wells and other means..

6)Unborn Babies

high rate of abortion

7)Our Planet

God's creation
theology in environment
London, is 5 to 10 times more flithy than Singapore
6 billion people is living on this planet
a lot of complex issue are involved, but wat ever small part we can do to help reduce the damage, do it...
pray for it..

Evangelism

respond to their physical needs, not just giving them the bible, as they may not even noe how to read.
care for them, give them love, give them wat they need, be sensitve

Anguish

this is wat life as a whole as we can't just live with joy and not anguish with people that are in need of our help

weep with those who weep, rejoice with those who rejoice

珍惜你身边的人，别的到他离开，离世时，才来一个隆重的葬礼，

那一切都是徒然的，再大的葬礼，那个人都不在了。。。

大一岁的感想。。。

2006-06-04T00:32:00.000+08:00

累了。。。。

身心灵都出现了疲累，心力交瘁的现象。。
最近真得很容易累，间接的使我的心与灵也感到疲累。。
看来我应该slp多一点。。。
回顾十九年的一切，有许多美丽，开心的，感人的，令人痛哭的。。。
现在发现，人生真的有很多无奈。。。

上一个星期六，我的同班同学们和我一起去ps庆祝。
我实在太累了，所以看起来不是很high。。。
哈哈，抱歉抱歉。
第一次去Fish& Co，好nice，好好吃。。。
很感谢大家，很忙都抽空来，还送了一个帅帅的皮包给我。
也很感谢大A所送的衣服，nice...

生日当天，我的VC和Foxtrot detachment送了一个蛋糕给我。。哈哈，很drama。。。morning nap的时候，忽然间，风扇被关掉。*stunt* VC捧了一个蛋糕走进来，还有其他的platoon mates, 祝我生日快乐。写着：Happy 20th Birthday Yiki!!

晚上的时候，有nights off。
几个要好得platoon mates和我一起去看戏。
我请了自己吃chicken cutlet，有点贵，但难的生日，无所谓啦，哈哈。。
接着，我们就进戏院看X Men III: The Last Stand。。。
好看，哈哈。。

下个礼拜outfield了，未解决，未解决，未解决。。。
我的platoon mates有压力，我有压力。
困难，但还是要做。。。

走下去，求主与我同行。。。

yeah yeah yeah!! recover liaoz!!

2006-05-22T15:54:00.000+08:00

heyhey everyone i recover liaoz!! thank you for your prayers. yeah.. my life is back to normal le...haha..
have been watching mask rider 555.. super cool .. the movie is oso so cool.. din noe he ren dong got act in mask rider as bad guy.. haha.. so stunned...
book in soon le.. so long... tata..

HFMD.....

2006-05-18T13:43:00.000+08:00

this may be shocking.. i'm down on hfmd... which means HAND, FOOT, MOUTH DISEASE..

stunned? me too.. at home since yesterday afternoon, after the MO confirmed it is hfmd.. the medics see me like ghost like that... i oso very scared i 'l touch the or anything... now i see kids faraway oso very.. scared they 'l get.... took cab home.. very ex, but no choice..
i ground myself at home in order not to be in contact with anyone else...
well , look on the bright side.. i'm already recovering....more then 50% le..hope to get well fast enough to go kbox..hee.. pls pray for illness.. don't worry too! haha

be brave and do not avoid anymore

2006-05-01T22:02:00.000+08:00

to face one's weakness and wrongdoing is a very difficult task, hope that God'l guide me and face it and change. trust and obey...

oya, hope that we can sing k on sat..
hehe, if not next next thurs ba, before vesak day, hehe

sorry ah!! i failed u all once again!!

2006-04-02T18:02:00.000+08:00

sorry sorry... i'm late again... can't do wat i'm tasked to do.. pai sei pai sei.. next time i 'l try not to be late anymore.. very sorry... haha...
yp's bdae today!!
celebrate with her yesterday with the other classmates-->
main masterminds->hw,pris
participants(hee)->angela,laoda,xq,wk,yk
plan--> blindfold her and set up a firecracker circle around her.. haha.. smoking everywhere, make her drink some carlsberg as she is blindfolded.. haha.then later drink volka and eat the cake we bought for her.. whole face red, then aunty wen keep laughing and laughing... hee

this morning i 赖床 again... haha(always??) alarm clock set at 645 赖 until 715 then go bath and get ready.. hee.. this morning the song is quite high... haiz.. the voice not ready.. sang in quite a difficult state, 破音for the high part, haha........ but i think the most impt thing is that i can feel the song , the lyrics as we are singing.. during the last part i almost forgot i'm singing in front of congregation... i'm so into the song that i'm no longer aware on the stage fright and the lights, the song, the lyrics and the meaning just fill me..... from that, i can fully understand wat's the meaning of thank you for the music ...

每一天。。。。
每一天，
我祈求三件事，
能看你更清晰，爱你更深切，跟随你更亲近，
每一天，每一天，
阿门。。

wedding!!

2006-03-18T23:52:00.000+08:00

just come back from wee hua's wedding.. so cute, the couple.. haha.. the ceremony was very enjoyable and comfty.. suddenly found out that roses are really very nice..haha.. so happy for them, but wedding oso very tiring.. both of them look tired..haha... but its worth la, once in life time.. today pastor sim told me about life planing.. very meaningful..

i think that i think too much, i'm actually very fortunate!

may i have a pair of wings??或者，继续走下去？

2006-03-18T01:06:00.000+08:00

may i have a pair of wings? pls?
so that i can fly to a place where, there is no trouble or suffering, pain or emptiness..
to a place so far, so high, where i can almost embrace the stars, a place where stars are my only companions.
to a place where u 'l not vomit out wat u eat or can't even taste food cause u'l have the urge to vomit instantly, a place where u won't feel terriblily hungry yet u can't eat cos u'l puke
to a place where headache does not exist and haunt u everyday
to a place where i can't really think, where nightmare doesn't exist at all?
i'm weird, crazy, noisy, talkative, childish, loser, coward, weak, troublemaker, useless, low self esteem, can u, the reader find more? possiblily..
this world, mayb if i mia is a gd idea huh? a more quiet and peaceful world?

wat is yiki? how does this thing change thru time? bad to worse? like wat the guy say" wah, you have been in here for so long le, can play until like that only ah"
so, this thing, start to run, fast, but apparently, still can't run away from its state of uselessness..
if this thing doesn't exist at all, hmm, mayb our dear earth is a better world, hor?

this place, where izzt? sounds far, but to fly there , quite near..
izzt it great, flying in the darkest and coldest night, where the warmth of the small little star and moon ray can be felt.

can u feel it? i think i can.

but, wat 'm i thinking? wat 'm i doing? i dunno , i dunno , idunno!!
so confused, who'm i, wat 'm i , wati'm doing here ?

dreaming, yes, it must be.. its time to wake up lor

sleepy, tired, the above entry is written by such a soul, so is written to be ignored and need not be cared.

if i have the wings, i won't fly, cos i can't , i shouldn't. the place is yet to go.
i should still walk, with confidence, be useful, normal.
God, pls walk, jog, and run with me, back to who i am and should be

i am strong, when i'm on your shoulder, u raise me up to more than i can be
我愿意爱，因为上帝先爱我们
我要继续走下去，因主啊，你为我而死。
学习你的行为，作盐作光，尽我本分。
虽然我软弱，但有你与我同行，我做得到

tears in my eyes, blurring my sight....

2006-03-12T01:27:00.000+08:00

ah...so late liaoz so tired..... my eyelid can no longer hold the tears in my right eye, blurring my sight.... yawnz....

no matter where we are, the stars and the moon, we share the same sky... no matter who you are, what u do, how you live, we have the same sky... amazing isn't it? Maybe we are from different creed, race, skin colour, background, doing different things, thinking of different matters, worrying about different troubles, the sky is always there for you and me.. although the brightness and the amount of stars may differ, every night, the stars are always there, shining...., shining......., thru our eyes, into our heart...

hmm...changes....i'm weird... i know that.. sometimes i ponder upon things that had been done, why? why have i did this? why have i did that?

of course.. must look forward, learn and move on.. no point staying at the same place without progress..if not, how to improve and change for the better?? try as much as possible to embrace the most negative news with the most positive attitute..

i feel different.

i felt that i had changed, getting more and more indifferent everyday... easily agitated, short tempered, frustrated, irritated over things easily... everything doesn't seems to matter anymore... 19 years, what have i been doing? wasting time? fooling around? a clown?what i have i become of? being a coward, running away from a lot fears and phobias, avoiding things that are important and have to be done... lack of confidence and self esteem.. pessimistic, just think that things will turn out bad without even trying... this is what i call childish, when things don't go your way, just sit down on the floor and cry... i think i'm really losing myself.... can't really recognize myself anymore.. but, how much have i changed? this 19 years ....its like i have never grow up before... still behaving like a child..who i'm suppose to be? how am i suppose to behave?what is the point of living on?

my life my path, you set you lead, i carry on i learn.
break away from the cocoon and change.. metamorphosis

in the same starry starry night, i should spread my wings and embrace the light...

last words..

2006-02-17T00:50:00.000+08:00

today super happy!! haha...

to all my friends: thank you very much for toleratin me all these years, being there for me when i need u all most.. i'l always remember u all!! good bye.....
yiki

growing up???

2006-02-16T13:45:00.000+08:00

when can i grow up sia.... haha.. my friends always say that i'm childish.. not serious.. always fool around, like a hyper active kid jumping running around... true true.. i'm..
i noe.. as i grow older.. there should be at least some difference... but... haha.. very hard lez.. cos its simply me... how sia.. i can be serious one.. but for a short period of time.. cos my friend 'l think i drop into depression or sthg..(to others.. my normal is abnormal, my adnormal is their normal.. haha)-_-"... haha.. c how la.. 'l still try to change, hope the the real "me" won't b lost on the way.. haha.. cos i dun bring map....*faint*

going soon le..

2006-02-12T18:13:00.000+08:00

i ask le... haha.. the anwser is as i predicted... haha.. but its ok.. at least i picked up the courage le... haha..no regrets... hee.. no more yi han.. can go india in peace... hee.. mao..

continue fr below....

2006-02-07T20:04:00.000+08:00

sry for the short entry... ok.. let's continue

when i had settle myself at ms ho's house(cos i'm late...), a strong feeling surge into me... everyone had changed a lot...the gals dress sense have changed and improved... (but poor steph say ppl say she look like japan pornstar...*haha*), kenneth also changed, internally cum external ly... now got a bit of yoyo look and galfriend(although he don't admit....), then fj got a really cool car, and he is leaving us soon for training in australia le...

ok..saturday was amazing too.. ms, wk, cl, kenneth, ls,hw come my house to bai nian... okok.. o continue on fri night ba.. gotta book in le...

sorry, i'm back...

2006-02-05T23:54:00.000+08:00

hi ppl.. very sorry.. i m.i.a from this dimension for really a long long while.... din noe it was so long until meisze told me its last entry is on nov4... (i'm very shock when i was told*blush*)

okok, let me explain myself(or find excuses...) had been really busy playing games.... okok.. i noe this excuse sucks.. hha

went to ms ho's place on tue.. so happy to see her and her husband again.. they always look sso loving.. haha.. i discovered that her husband is oso quite lame one actually.. haha.. i think i meet my opponent le.. haha of course la, his joke can make ppl laugh even though is lame..
haha.. and it suit the climate.. haha.. din expect him to lame with me.. haha..wat an elating surprise..

block leave ending...

2005-11-04T20:27:00.000+08:00

blar blar blar.... today is gd day, it rained.. haha... did some house work,block leave ending soon le.. haiz.. haha.. gotta join the others, the brothers in green le.. haha... let's go, lao da's card deco...

......

2005-10-24T12:55:00.000+08:00

on leave now....
wed

i nose bleed after lunch 4 15 mins... record timing... after using tissue to block it, i don't of feeling of it flowing, so i talk it out.. Alas! a great volime of blood fell into the basin.. haiz... the prob is getting worse...

thurs

i bleed twice today.. haiz.. need to go NUH soon.. can't wait 4 27... but i have guard duty on that day 2.. haha.. busy day..

saturday......

kenneth bdae is fun, haha... but he oso quite pro, ate two times of buffet.... haha.. so full after the first one that he need the toilet badly...haha.. xq and i walk here and there , but din't really see any suitable shirt for our dear friend..... AT LAST, metro is the place to be... haha.. xq say its very nice, tried on and even say wanna buy one 4 himself.. haha.. ask me to take photo somemore..but its really nice..
haha before that, was thinking of a retro, bright orange, bright pink flowery shirt.. haha.. but we think that he won't dare to wear so we din't buy, luckily din buy that.. haha..

after so time, wk reached, cl reached, went to century arcade to play world combat(fav game),went to play pool 4 a while, then kenneth called , said that he free liaoz, so we procced to tm to meet him and angela we saw him and the other choir mates, and surprisingly have wayne.. haha..still the "yoyo" look.. our dear kenneth was having a bad stomach , then angela bought bao ji wan...

we move off to mrt, and i was stunted cos yp appear beside me suddenly! haha.. so the 7 of us moved on.... when we reach marina, we found out that pris was taking the same train as well!!! so coincidental...haha.. steph is already there..then hw and her younger cousin, jia hui, arrived.. we then go over to have steamboat, ju reached, fj and ms reach later...we ate quite a lot... iwas walking to get stuff, and then my left leg stepped into a small pool of water and got my shoe wet.. sad.. haha...

interesting part is here... i was trying to be naughty and steal from ju's plate, then steph was taking some stuff, and when she draw back her arm, her elbow hit the upper arc of my eyes! haha.. ouch! then is very funny, she kept apologising and try to help me rub the affected area, but instead, she rub my forehead.. WAHAHA!!!!! i'm sure she got lots of calcium in her sia.. haha...

after eating, we went over to a nearby arcade and played..then..... i spotted derrick watching his friends playing datona 2.. haha.. all botaks, remind me of bmt sia.. haha..then the gals went over to have a look and take photo..very funny..all the little fans inside them.. haha..

we went to play table soccer and world combat, again.. haha.. then, we left the arcade present all the present to ken.. he look very hiphop with the chain and jacket and 3/4 pants..haha.. its a pity that the area there do not sell cakes... haiz.. not as perfect as we thought it'l be... but but but!!! he is happy that's most important... haha...

lastly, in the train..
all of us were in a small comparment speaking & laughing very loudly then ken hold and lift(bao qi lai) ms in his arms to take photoes of acting couple... haha... everyone is looking at us in the train.. haha...

sunday

watch gigalo with my best buds, laoda(ccl4), lao er(wk) and xq=p funny, super funny..play initial d ver2.. fun.. enjoy..

monday...(today)

book in lo.. that's all folks! mao'l be back..

2005-10-16T21:16:00.000+08:00

ask me, why i liked to blog late at sat night... well.. its a night that i don't like to slp, its a night that 'l make me think of a lot of things... its a night of inspirations and feel...

hw ask me an interseting question...initially i tried to avoid it, but after a while, i think deeper, that's right! i'm restricted in the first place, its wrong to like her in the first place... seeking personal unhappiness without cause.... but , now, it still seems that i really can't help it.. haha.. i really hope the testi i wrote for xq worked 4 myself too... but but but! i'm starting to get over it painfully slowly, slowly painfully... so wat?!? this is my personal war! fight! resist! i'm just average. values. personalities. ALL DIFFERENT! DO U UNDERSTAND??? i do, i really do.. i'm starting to be torn apart as well! no one should be my float now! its unfair! control yourself! look at u, wat have u been? a pathetic baby, crying on the floor over something u can't get... GROW UP! this is so childish! when'l u grow up? still young? serving in NS for the 10 th month, still acting like a child!wat's the use of having a 19teen yr old body, but equiped with a 8 yr old brain?? useless!

i noe, i fear, i don't dare to try cos i noe the result.. one of my classmate asked me, why does her boyfriend, does not want to offically ask her to be her girlfriend? despite everything is already so understood? i said its difficult to say it out.why?its just difficult. as i answer, the memories two yrs ago haunt me.. why i din't ask? why does things have to turn out this way? i can't even talk to her when i see her... i'm guilty for hurting her, an eye contact is difficult, reading her letter, it really make me feel an ache in my heart..at that moment, i really should not had said that to her, at her mom's disapproval, i back out, or mayb i'm just selfish...

then, my classmate said"u noe, gals are afraid to be hurt..."well said... but does that means that guys are not? if u ask the question to the wrong person, u lose her permanently.. if she's the one, just ask it, u don't lose a thing... she'l be happy... guys, that is a confirmation question, its very important to ask despite it mayb embarrassing, be brave this once.. don't be like this writer ...

till today, there are a lot of regrets in me, a lot of wrong decisions made, wrong timing in doing certain things, doing wrongs things at the wrong time, mood swings, selfish. it really make me look back today, before anything i do.. if starting a new relationship'l cause another pain, i do not have the courage to start...i do not want to be hurt or hurt, nits painful for everyone.. two yrs ago, its a torment to 'break", now its a torment to love.. haha.. this is stupid... u must find this cheesy...haha haha haha!!! yes! this is stupid! this is the stupid foolish me! a lot of ppl says, to have bgr is just for companionship... it'l not be till marriage anyway... then wat's the whole pt!? if marriage is not the final destination, then a painful breakup is inevitable.. wat for!? this is hurting urself and the other party whom u love once..if one or the other party is not prepared for a relationship that last, one should rather be single, or else, one'l be creating pain to both party..

today wayne's musical is great! outstanding! marvelous! it really make me think, can my life have a good ending as well?? is everyone given a second chance in their life? i went to enjoy the concert with hw, two lovebirds(hx&galfriend)..envy.. haha..the musical is about a gal's dream to be the best, biggest model from singapore in New York.. she is filled with fantasy of power , fame, and wealth.. she is there, she make it big, with big sacrifices made as well... but she have taken an u-turn in her life.. she realise its not as promising afterall... its not worth it.. that's true, power, fame and wealth won't last, but ppl just want more of that.. this include the stupid me... the male lead actor said,"she is annoying, but i think she is cute..." irony? it happens.. strange huh?? haha.. love makes a person weird... haha, just that, is a gd or bad weird that's all... i'm weird... i'm getting more and more weird.. haha.. i'm don't understand myself, my friends noe me better than i do.. or i just choose to lie to myself, not accepting facts??

i have been lying to myself long enough, since p6, i hid myself in a mask of laughter, smiles. taking it off is not often,, sometimes i don't really whether i'm really feeling happy when i smile or laughed sometimes i wear it to face myself too...

well.. that's enough 4 today! haha.. don't worry guys, i'm ok.. just writing some trash to vent some emotions... haha.. nt all r true, i love to exaggerate.. haha.. have been writing since 2.. tired le.. haha..

2005-10-07T15:42:00.000+08:00

CHEATED!!!!!

was supposed to have outfield..... went there with everything liaoz, then was called back after lunch, was told that its postponed to next week... haiz.... when i'm appointed as the driver for the first time, it's cancelled!!!.. sad... y???? so sad.. next week is five day somemore.. it was supposed to be this week four days next week three days.. now its continuous five days.... i may not be holding driver role this time.. haiz..(mon)

challenge my own limit...

i ran 10 k plus last night.. haha.. none stop lez.. first time.. haha.. but i ran 4 around 1 hr.. v.slow.. need to train harder...

2005-10-02T16:03:00.000+08:00

today was great... the live fire is really exciting.. the driving is fun too. have not been driving for such dist for so long le.. super happy!! was so happy that i hyper ventilate... haha.. le ji sheng bei... haha... when the bomb fire.. the whole vehicle shakes... very exciting...as the bomb fly away from the barrel, pieces of exploded just rain down.. smoky...the amazing thing is that the barrel released smoke after the firing and the entire barrel get really hot..

guys, last week's posting was a bit exaggerating, haha... but, if u choose to believe it, it'l be true, if not its not.. haha..

ly, u r rite... i'l miss hk.. haha.. food...cousins..relatives..

tomolo'l book in for outfield as enemy 4 the other companies.. hope its fun=p

2005-09-26T09:22:00.000+08:00

God! Help me! SOS

tired, very...
why must life be this way?
God, i need you... i'm very lost, afraid and tired..
my soul need an awakening...

i don't wanna be pestered by ppl, tempted by worldly desire, visual lust, unjust pride...

affairs of the heart=troublesome matters

tried too hard? she won't get it? she's just a friend to me? can't get over her?pure stupidity?her presence is enlightening/heartbreaking??? i'm not good enough?? no confidence? she's different from me(character), by a lot? and a lot more differences??? i noe it'l not happen, but i just can't let go??? painful, very very painful...

time to let go, u should...

i noe, but i can't, its too difficult i just can't....

talk about sthg else....

yesterday was really crazy!! haha fr 9 sing till 230.... pure madness.. but it was really fun, singing my hearts out, as the lyrics bring out my emotion and feeling deep in me, its good.. fj brought a friend and he sing very well! Cool.. after that we go eat 85 for supper.. its great...

meeting with lishan...

second last time , she changed once again, more and more feminine... haha
hope that she'l pursue her dreams and achieve wat she always wanted to be....

first time buying a CD for myself....

its leo koo haha.. have always wanted it.... (flower idiot...)

that's it la... book in le.... cya...

i'm back after along long time...

2005-09-17T16:13:00.000+08:00

yiki is back!!! haha.. back from field camp too!! haha.. today is hyper tiring.. wash vehicle.... drain plugs.. poppet valves... coolant.. engine oil.. water hose... leaves.. oils... sand & mud... and their very unpleasant mixture.....

2004-12-17T09:47:00.000+08:00

hey yiki,angela here..haha hey sry to be typing this here but u can delete this entry later.
i help u apply for a doddle-board.
user name and password r the same as ur blog's one.
so u just go check ur mail and follow the instructions.
den get the html code frm doodle board and copy paste it to ur template which says "tag board here"any probs can find me lar.k tk cr cya dude:))

thank you angela

2004-12-16T20:27:00.000+08:00

thank you so so so so much for helping me to make this blog happen....

2004-12-16T17:30:00.000+08:00

Testing..this is yiki's first entry,and im doing it for him.
aniwei hope u like this template.got it frm blogskins.
u can change the pic if its too girly or wadever,yup,tk cr:))

much love
angela-----xx